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I don’t look too closely at people when I walk around the streets, incase I see you and you ignore me, or I see you with someone new.

I don’t look too closely at people when I pass them by; I’d rather not see someone I know than make eye contact and have them not recognise me.

I prefer to be unseen, than seen and unnoticed.

I don’t think too much about people I can’t be near incase something is wrong. I prefer not to know, than know and not be able to help. I hate feeling helpless and out of control.

I try not to think of all the ills in the world that I contribute to. But I know that I should feel even more guilty than I already do.

I try to occupy my mind and forget everything I want to be, because I’m so far from being that person I feel overshadowed by my desire to be better, nicer, stronger, smarter, funnier, richer, kinder.

I try to ignore my past sins, or rationalise them, but I’m secretly really scared of judgement day.

I want to help people, but I don’t know how to tell if I’m being taken advantage of and when to stop.

I want to be surrounded by (more) amazing, kind, clever friends, but I can’t be bothered to meet new people.

I miss being a child and having the excuse of not knowing better, the excitement of life to come, and the feeling of awe in small things.

I hate new year, and feel uncomfortable on birthdays. I spend time reflecting and analysing and don’t like what I see.

Nobody knew of or cared about Paris Hilton until videos of her having sex made their way online, and into a video store near you. People stopped caring about once-beautiful Pamela Anderson but she quickly rocketed back into the limelight when her sex-on-a-boat tape was published. Lindsay Lohan was already popular, but was talked about a lot more when photos of her “nipple slip” pictures made it online. Britney Spears was starting to become old news, but then she was photographed without underwear climbing into a cab drunk with new “friend” (PR stunt expert) Paris Hilton. Big Brother UK needed to better its previous series so it put cameras in the communal showers and broadcast housemates having sex in the toilet.

It’s THAT easy to be famous now?? Become mildly recognisable to the public by appearing in some sort of random national TV show and then have sex on camera to catapult yourself into the celebrity A-list? REALLY?

I’m not saying that seeing celebrities naked is a bad thing; this is not a social commentary on whether porn is good or bad. What I AM saying is that it offends me that them being naked makes them SO MUCH more money. What the hell does Paris Hilton do to make this world a better place? Or Pamela Anderson for that matter? They are famous through scandal and slutty behaviour. THAT pisses me off.

Now we have a Dustin Diamond sex tape. “Who?” you ask. Screech from Saved By The Bell. SCREECH IS ON A SEX TAPE.

I don’t imagine this particular incident is linked to his new movie, Hamlet ADD, but it does do a lot to bring him back into the public eye.

We have people doing incredible, brilliant things in this world. We have new technologies created every day, people curing diseases, writing music, fighting poverty, peacekeeping… But THESE are the people we choose to reward.

It’s a fucking disgrace.